It has been long i update my blog. I kinda miss it. Mostly the reason is because i got my T.E.D.S most of my time. The other reason is because i was very devastated of my 'O' Level result. I was stump at the scores i got. (please don't ask me about my result).
I wasn't prepared to take the other route, i'm still confused. Although i have supporters behind me telling me to, 'Don't give up, its not the end ', that sentence really tips me off. I couldn't stand that sentence. What is the point i studying hard and not getting it, Its stupid i tell you. If i can't do well in that exam what makes you think i can do well in the other route? If your answer is simply, "Can one, just study hard..", i tell you, its pointless.
I really appreciate those people who support me but stop making sentence like that. The feeling i have about my result the feeling you get when you are drowning. Hurting myself was the thought i got, but something really pulling me back. I really hope i could resist myself and be strong. I might be losing strength. THE WORD I HAD IN MIND ALL THE TIME IS, "NO". I had terrible nightmares everytime i tried to shut my eyes. I hope can be strong, my weakness is stronger than my strength. I might be losing my mind with those thoughts.
My Grandmother is making imply about my grades to all my younger cousins and younger brother so that they won't be a crybaby like me when they receive their reults one day. Even my mum is not helping me at all, now i really wish i got a great dad to talk to and really communicate to share my problems like this.
Afiq Abdul
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